Saturday, March 31, 2007

I'm on a task to do something almost impossible - clean my room.

I've got this new rack from ikea, because my wardrobe is soooo tiny. Trying to arrange my clothes is tedious, but not because I have too many. I have so many clothes that I use to sleep in. Heh. Old shirts from the past, which I don't want to throw away. Ah well.

My room is so small, I had to rearrange a number of things just to fit the rack in. =X

Still a long way from a clean room. The arrangement of my room is kinda dumb lar, since its something for a kid. I have quite alot of unusable space due to the arrangement. Heh. Then again, I'm pretty good at messing rooms up. =D

I've actually got a truckload of stuff in my mind, so much so that I don't even know what's really bothering me. I've become this very bored and boring person these few days. Its not even PMS. Sorry boyfriend! I hope this passes soon.

K lar, I should go back to the mission impossible. =)

Posted by Carol =) at 10:28 PM

Friday, March 30, 2007

Haven't blogged for awhile. I was getting busy, and busy getting sick. Sigh.

Finally applied for UniMelb. Now what?

Been working and I'm really starting to feel like a parrot. "come in come in come in" "sit down sit down" "wait outside wait outside". Grrrrr.

Ahhh.

I had stuff to blog. Now I'm just too lazy! Blearh. =/

Laters.

Posted by Carol =) at 6:23 PM

Saturday, March 17, 2007

Life's a damn weird thing. I know we all should live life to the fullest, but sometimes I think all that is bullshit. How to leave life to the fullest when we can't stop thinking about things? Like exams, where to further your studies, what to further, whether you will like it, whether you can get in....

I don't think that anyone has had everything going the way they want it to be, except those spoilt rich bastards out there. In a certain time of everyone's life, we meet rejection, dejection, dilemmas, and all sorts of other things. If you can look at everything with a positive mindset, good for you! Its not easy to be cheerful all the time. Hard as I might try, I still get sad, worried, and even feel regretful about things I've done. I admit I could have done better in school, if I worked harder, especially in year two. At the same time I'm glad I got so much more chances to participate in events that are once in a lifetime opprtunities. Maybe its those that make me study lesser, or maybe I couldn't juggle things well enough. Its all in the past now anyway.

When you're in school, you can't wait to get out of school. But is working what you really want? A full time job, complete with gross politics and underhand means for promotions and pay increments? The competitiveness of a working environment would be a great deal more than school. Working full time is quite a drag, especially when it becomes a routine. I want to go to work with a new objective, new challenges.

What do I want to do with my life? I know I want to study. I need a cert to get what I want in the future. I want to do research, something which isn't just boring old nine to five routine. Something I can progress on, something ever changing. Its true that research work can last for a long time, but somehow the monotony is different from office jobs. I'll never be an OL. I can't possibly survive that. What to should I do in Uni? I can't stop wondering. I want to do immuno, pharmacology, and biotechnology. I want to study IT modules, design modules, english, and many many more. I won't be satisfied if I specialise already. Yea, I know I'm greedy, and perhaps its making me lose focus. Ambitious, I suppose...

Sometimes I really thank God I'm in Biotech instead of Medtech. Phew.

Somehow more choices also mean a bigger headache for me. =/
Who should I listen to? Who do I look to for advice? Where should I be? What do I really want to do? I'm reallllly confused.
Is a better cert more worth it than if I can go with a friend? Does the better cert equate a more meaningful education? I want to learn more. Is QUT better for me? I'm really confused.
Should I go in Aug or Feb? Would I have no more wish to study if I start too late? It feels so horrible sometimes to be caught in decision making. If you know me quite well, you'll know I can never decide. =/ My boyfriend would know very well. =X

Sometimes I really wonder how life would be without my boyfriend readily available. When I'm overseas, and I need him how? Long distance call so expensive. I want to fly him over and have him take care of me. How would Uni life be? Definitely worse than poly. Ah well... Still must study. In Aust, would I be able to do what I want? Or would I make the same mistake of trying to do too much, thinking that I have time for everything? Hmmmm...

I want to play hockey, I want to take up piano again, I want to play handbells again, I want to serve in the airport again, I want to do so many things....! I want to get my class3before I fly! Hey that means I better go in Feb. Lalalalalalala...

I have this mixed optimistic/pessimistic view of life. Sounds so schizophrenic la. Haha.

Posted by Carol =) at 7:36 PM

Friday, March 16, 2007

I want a new blog skin!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I used to like my blogskins. Boo. I got no time to get a new blogskin! =( Bleah.

Anyway, I think I owe the girls an apology cause I was supposed to take a day off this week. AHhhhhh. I couldn't!! I couldn't come online either. So busy that I am so tired!! Sorry!! Hahaha. Anyway, next week's good. =) Friday? =D

I'm accompanying my boy in the morning, so I guess I'll be pretty free from noon onwards. Lalala.

Feeling pretty random cause nothing's being processed properly in my brain. =X

*zones out*

This blog post has just lost connection with its author.

Posted by Carol =) at 8:18 PM

Friday, March 09, 2007

my boy boy has been very naughty lately. never listen to me ah!!
better listen to me ok?

hahaha. just a teeny weeny reminder to the one i heart. =)

Posted by Carol =) at 12:06 AM

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

At first I was totally regretting and asking myself why I stepped into the full time working world. The one which operates five days a week, nine hours a day.

Now I think its not all too bad. I think I owe it to the staff at SATA. I've only been there for three days, and I can say that the people there are great! The nurses, clinical assistant, doctors are really nice, teaching me everything I have to know, correcting my mistakes, giving me tips about certain operations. They've been so nice I can hardly curse and swear at the low pay the agency is offering. =/

Wahahaha!

I would volunteer for SATA next time man. At least the agency doesn't earn! HA! Hahahaha. Well I need the money lar. After all I'm working for it. Lalala.

Perks of the job include, not too stressful, nice environment, cheap food, and that I get off almost the same time as my boy! Woohoo. Can't say the same if I still work at Mind. Hahaha. Mind still owes me pay. Hmmmm..

Haven't updated for a long while. Highlights of the missing portion includes CNY visiting, bimbo partys with the biotech girls, being out most of the time, jam packed with appointments! I told you I didn't like being too free. =D

Ok lar. Kinda occupied at this point of time. I'll update again... =)