Saturday, September 09, 2006

I got the NYAA gold award!!!

Wahahaha~ I can still remember Vicky saying that it was on a first come first served basis, and Kaan and I were last few to be interviewed! Well, that was partly our fault lar, we kept forgetting to call. Heh. But I'm glad we still got it after all. At least our last minute rush of report was worth the effort. Hee.

I guess I want to change the tone of this blog a little. More like, I wanna change the tone of how I live my life. I'm sick of being so stressed and tired out. Sick of being so worried and moody and oh-so-irritating. I'm sick of being me. I have this feeling that I just want to complete my poly real fast, rush out of school, and just leave my past behind. Grrrrrrrr.

Sigh. Missed church again. Hopefully this week I won't miss it. I need a really loud alarm. Grrrrr. I don't want to miss church!! = ( Everything seems to fall apart when I miss church. Sigh. I want to walk as close to the Holy Spirit as I was before.. He gives me the strength and the joy which I really need to survive on. Without him, I'm really just nothing. Sigh.

Oops. I just said I wanted to change the tone right? Hee. Yup yup! Cheerful days ahead!(I hope!!)

Last semester of my poly career! Ganbatte ne everybody! The final lap to go~ Then its on to further education. Bleah. Wahahaha!

Oh so many things to do and to look forward to this holidays! I get to meet my girls again! Joyce Lim's concert! Whee~ I will have to turn up in blazer though. I don't exactly mind, but I will be overdressed for sure. =X

As for my disappointments, I'll throw them away for the moment. The 13th. It will decide my mood for the following months.

Lalala~ I want a gathering so bad. I miss 4A!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I miss handbell~ I miss secondary school.

Talking about secondary school, I went back to SHSS on during the Teachers' day celebrations! I'm glad most of my teachers still remember me. Heh. Mr Chiang said I look smaller. I'm glad! Hahaha. Miss Chin Li Fang(Mrs Goh) still remembers me by name too! She has two kids already. Sigh. So cute!!! (we saw their pictures~) Ms Sarah Yew too! Well, I did meet her at the airport while she led some kids to NZ. I'll always remember her. Mrs Wong Kit Fong, Mrs Ong Hwa Hiong, Miss Tan Yen Lin! Miss Tan looks exactly the same. Wearing the same kind of clothes. I really miss her!! I remember she was one of my favourtie teachers. Even though she made us copy chapters lar. Haha. When we stood in a group to chat that day, it felt more like friends, rather than teacher and students. I guess we really have aged. Ya lar, matured, but aged what!!

The old school building seems so distant to me now. The classrooms, the hall, drop-in centre, creativity hall, labs, sigh. I miss the school uniform too. Even the 2.4 route! Wahahaha~

I hope I never forget the times I had in secondary school. The friends I met there are the friends I can keep for life. Thank you SHSS, thank you my alma mater~

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! I want a time machine la!!!!!!!

Posted by Carol =) at 3:59 AM

Ahhhhhhhhh!


I have a bazaar tomorrow and I have hardly enough to sell!!

And I'm ill!!!


Boooooooooooooo.

Besides that, everything is going fine. S2006 is starting, results are coming(*shivers*), ermm, suddenly I can't think of any more. Oh well~

My mood's getting better lar. It still all depends on the next two weeks.....

Posted by Carol =) at 12:42 AM

Sunday, September 03, 2006

I wonder....

I wonder quite a number of different things... I wonder if I'm doing the right things, I wonder if I'm thinking too much, I wonder if everybody is the same, I wonder, I wonder, I wonder.

I think I really want a break. I really want to run away from reality and just shut myself in a quite corner of the world and relax. Ya, I know that it is running away, and that running away won't solve any problems. Running away won't make anything better. Perhaps after a break, when I return, I'll feel even more stressed.

What is making me so stressed actually? School? Education? Life? Family? Relationship? Friendship? I don't know. I really can't figure it out.

Soon, my teenage years would be over. Will life get easier? I doubt so. Will it just be as bad, or will it get worse? At this rate, all my hair would be gray in a matter of no time.




ARGH!


You know what I need?



A time-out!

*pardon me pple. i need to trash it out with myself. i promise to be ok soon*

Posted by Carol =) at 11:08 PM