Monday, April 24, 2006

Yea yea, so I haven't exactly been updating.

Life has been very different since I landed in Singapore Changi Airport. Everything seems to be so fast paced, as if to rush and catch up after all the slow moving time in Thailand. I haven't had time to sit down and properly use my computer. Okay okay, so there's no such thing, but it certainly feels that way. There seems to be so much to do, so much to catch up on. So much to think about.

The first week of school is already over. We're already deciding on our FYP(final year project). I have a presentation this thursday. ITS ALL TOO FAST! There's too little time!!! Ahhhh!

Well there is time, but I need time to spend with bf right? Wahahaha.

And you know what? I'm down with flu... Sigh. Help?

Posted by Carol =) at 11:14 PM

Monday, April 10, 2006

Whoever told me Bangkok was hot must have been kidding. Well, for the past few weeks at least. Wahaha...

For the past two weeks, it has been nothing much but rain in Bangkok. Rain, rain, thunder, lightning, blackouts, more rain, and more blackouts.

Okok, so I might be exaggerating a little. But trust me. There has been alot of rain.

The first three weeks we were here, there was NO rain. No, nada, nil, zilch. But after that, its was rain rain rain. The rain here is quite scary actually.

A few days before the rain, there was very strong wind. VERY. Then, just before it started to rain, there was strong winds, and it was late at night. A few of us were in family mart when the lights flashed on and off. Kind of like those scenes you see near the end of the world la. Hahaha. No exaggerating too much la! But it was fun, we made it back to our rooms. The moment we stepped out of the lift, it blacked out. Thank God we weren't stuck inside. So we ended up in Bahlum's room, eating and chatting. Wahaha. Oh well. What an experience!

After that incident, it kept raining and raining already. Like in one of my previous post, this area was flooded. Oh well. The day we went to Tesco Lotus, there was rain. Yesterday when we went back to Chatuchak, there was rain. It rained in several mornings and nights too.

Now I know. When it rains in Bangkok, it pours. Literally. Hahahaha.

Many of us take rain as a cleansing shower, a cooling change, feeling refreshed afterwards. The first time it rained. All I thought of was, this rain is seriously polluted. Yuck. Wahaha. The air here is so polluted, the rain would have dissolved all the pollution before falling. Sigh. The next few days were better though. Somehow, the rain must have cleansed the air! Wheee!

The other day we went to look for our advisor, and he told us that it hardly rains around this period of time. It's already almost the hottest season in Thailand. As Pim told me, there's only two seasons in Thailand, hot and very hot. Wahaha. In actual fact, there's winter in Thailand! Singapore only has summer lar.

Talking about the hot season, do you know that there's a festival in Thailand known as the Song Kran Festival? Its on the 13 of April to the 15! Heard it starts and ends at different times at different areas.

The festival is when people splash water at each other to cool off the hot weather! Its held yearly at this time, and people all around do it! Cool? Very. Imagine, everyone just splashing water at everyone else! Cool isn't it?

I heard from Yuy that they throw flour at each other too! Tukta and Tum were saying that ice was used too. Might be going around in a truck on that day to play! Wheeee! I shall blog if I had fun. Wahahaha.

Didn't mean to blog so much. Didn't even mean to blog. came down from my room to find Pearly and Christina and I blogged. Oh well! Hahaha... I shall go off already! Byeeeee~

Posted by Carol =) at 7:48 PM

Tuesday, April 04, 2006

Somehow, as days go past, I realised I hardly blog about anything meaningful anymore. Neither do I have posts full of thoughts, though I have plenty. I guess I just don't blog about such stuff. But I was just wondering, why do I blog? To air my views? To let people know how I am? To improve my english? To have something to do when I'm bored? To just have a blog? I have no idea.

Yet I blog, and I want to blog.

I was reading Joyce Peh's blog, and I realised that a mission trip is much closer to my heart too. I miss Joyce alot.. I guess seeing her everyday in secondary school wasn't enough. She's someone I can share anything with, do anythings with, even eat anything with! Except cheese lar, she hates that. Right Joycie? Wahahaha... Hey, if you got lobang for mission trip tell me k? Wahahaha...

Joyce isn't the only person I miss ok! There's loads more, but suddenly linked to her mah. Wahaha...

So who or what else do I miss?

I guess.... I really miss church alot. I miss having a church to go to, I miss worshipping. I miss times where God comforts me, when He's so close to me. But alas, I might have lost it all. I still love God, I still believe in God. But I'm not behaving the way God wants me to. I'm not walking side by side with Him, perhaps not even close to. I feel lost and confused at times, and I know only God can help.

Why? What happened to my old church? Someone came and took over, first brought us to where we've never been, so close to God. Then, things happened, people failed, hearts were broken, trusts were betrayed. Lies like never before were told, friendships were broken. many rules were set, many things disallowed. many things that occur in everybody's life. Souls were saved, yet souls were lost, people were hurt, many went astray. Why did all this happen? Why didn't I try to salvage the situation? Why were so many hurt? I guess it all hurts God. Yet He allows everything to happen.

Sunday might just be a routine for some of you. It's not supposed to be! Remember when we were on fire? When we were willing to go all out? The joy, the tears, the love. Just because of someone, everything has gone down the drain. That someone. Someone I used to respect. Someone I have already lost all respect for. Its so not worth it. Doesn't anyone else desire the lives we once had? Am I the only one? I have no idea if I will ever get to go back to that life. Yet I desire it.

Like I agreed with Joyce, I do feel disappointed for the things some people have done. But they have been done, and nothing can undo them. Maybe they don't realise it now, and continue with it... We will always hope that one day they won't do it anymore. Be the same as they used to be. Its much like a permanent scar. Ugly to behold, yet it shows that wounds have been healed.

I don't know if all i have blogged about makes any sense. I just wanted to say something that I really feel. Not just what I do day to day, nor the food that I eat, nor the people that I meet. I'm not telling anyone how to live their lifes, just stating how I feel. Sometimes I wonder how to live my own life lar. Wahaha.

K lar. Better not make everyone more confused. If you guys don't agree with this, just ignore it okay? I'll stop now. Heh...

Posted by Carol =) at 9:53 PM

Monday, April 03, 2006

I love mango with sticky rice!!!!

Ahhhhhh!!

Book's mum made some sticky rice, and gave us about six mangoes. Super sweet! Delicious! The rice, the coconut milk, and some crunchy thing. Wah! Mango feast last night. Hehhhh...

这就是幸福的感觉！太幸福了！

Lalalalala...

I'm living in food heaven!!!

Posted by Carol =) at 4:33 PM

Saturday, April 01, 2006

There was nothing much to do today.

Nothing much to eat for dinner.

Why??

Tomorrow is the elections!

You know what? There's tents set up for elections in the campus.

There's nothing to do tomorrow. Sigh. Hahaha... I'm a just bored person.

Don't know what else to say also... Bye!

Posted by Carol =) at 9:46 PM

I think I know why that night was so special already!

Well...........

Nothing pretty much happens here at night....

Lalalalalala~