Monday, September 27, 2004

I'm back! After about one week. Thanks for all your concern everyone! Eunice always make me happy. :) Hahahaha. Not saying other people don't. But Eunice is different. Ask around and you'll know. Wahaha. Thanks Eunice!!

I'm actually feeling much better already. With most of my projects handed in and only a math test this week. Of course, next week I'll have a biophysics test and an anatomy physiology test. Haha. I'll take it as it comes la. Just wish i could revise my work a little more. Been swimming more these days. Getting a little addicted. Afterall, its fun, and the only form of exercise I have while I'm in poly. Well, almost. Haha. But swimming is good. Its relaxing.

Well, though I am happier, I am still procrastinating my work! Haha... I was supposed to come home to go through some things and revise a little today. Ended up playing with com and watching tv. Time passes so fast while you're slacking. Haha. But since I study better at night, I'll do it later. Study. Since no shows to catch tonight, there wouldn't be much distractions. I hope. I don't seem to have a proper table for studying you see. MATH test. Its coming... aAAHHHHHhh! Help! Hee. Dying with math already.

Oh. I messed up my practical test today. Haha. The test is different from any other practical tests I've had. There's no instructions. Just gives you 4 unknowns. And tell you that there is a monosaccharide, dissaccharide, protein, and amino acid. Yep. Had to construst this decision tree, then decide which tests you used, and determine the nature of the unknowns. My goodness. My solution D2 like dunno what sia! Everything I tested was negative. Then I was stunned. Haha. Stupid lar. Dunno what was happening. Then I had Seliwanoff's reagents all over my hands. NOT GOOD. Especially if you have sensitive skin. Like mine. My hands turned red. And itchy. And still itched after I washed it with soap twice. Wah! Not very nice during a practical test. Sumitha and Nadia both had acid on their fingers. Worse than me I guess.

After the test we were at the com lab, then came the biophysics lesson. Spent one hour digesting bernoulli's equation and poiseuille's law. Yup. It has got to do with blood flow and pressure. Wahaha. Ok. At least I understood. But I think I'll forget. Goh's lessons are but once a week. So, oh well. Actually I could have gone home after the test to rest. In CRS we just briefly went through the test papers. Maybe after biophysics lar. Yea. So I'm tired now. After typing so much anyway. K. I'll get going. Will TRY MY BEST to do my work later.

Posted by Carol =) at 9:42 PM

Wednesday, September 22, 2004

Its finally over!! My biochem test is over!! *prances around with joy waving her hands in the air* Wahaha! Okie! Its really like a total load off my shoulders. I guess I got too stressed up with it. Like every time I keep thinking I have something I haven't done. But can't think of anything. Biochem messes up my brain la. But its OVER!! yay! The long question was about ONPG. I just wrote every single thing I could remember, and added alot of stuff on my own. For example, I said it was easily obtainable. Wahaha... Now where did that come from? Well, think I must just pass. Haha. Got back my Mathcad test. I got 20/20! cool. Haha. Lucky I went early to school that day to practise.

Enough! I've had enough of biochem! Got the report to complete. I'll do that tomorrow. I finish at 11. Going for make-up jap lessons at 3. So I got a looooong break. I plan to, 1. Do my biochem report (boring but impt), 2. Get make up form from T19(super far, but i've got to), 3. Hand in my forms, 4. Do my math project.(which is due friday). Haha. Going to look for the brekz people at billy bombers for dinner.

Looking at my box of unopened pocky. Can't eat it as I'm developing a sore throat. Ouch. Haha. And I ate Macs for dinner. My throat suffers. SPARC breifing made me think twice before joining them. Yup. But I'm going to just go for the interview. Both SPARC and SPSC. I doubt I'll make SPSC though. It means SP student comperes. My goodness! I shake in front of people! My paper will tremble non-stop. But I really admire those comperes. The way they speak and hold themselves. WOw! Haha. The SPAC2GO and SPARC's presentations paled in comparison. Haha. Oh well. Shan't compare. They are trained for that. Haha. Going for the interviews doesn't mean I'll end up inside anyway. I'm already in CYA. This carries on I'll be quiting from my job at brekz. Before I die due to overload. Maybe its not tat bad in Stage A. Stage B will be bad. I trust that. So, we'll see. I'll have to start being less detached to my computer. So in the meantime, I will "cheong" using the com! Haha... No lar. i will try to be less addicted to this rectangle folding piece of hard drive, moniter and keyboard thing. Haha.

Been typing alot recently? I think so. With all the reports and stuff. DOn't I get bored? YES, But I guess this is different. But I have a good mind to close down my blog. Hahaha. Maybe I'll use the com less. I won't read people's blog. I will stop downloading things. I will use my computer only when I really need it. For reports and stuff. Its a thought. Quite reasonable because my exams will be here soon. I will shut myself OUT of the house and study. YES. I WILL ENDURE. I hope. Haha.

Posted by Carol =) at 10:31 PM

I'm feeling so pissed off right now. Feel like screaming very vulgar word possible out loud. I feel lousy. My biochem test is in, like, 10 hours? And I don't seem to know a SINGLE thing. 10 hours. 5 of which I will sleep. 3 spent in other classes. That leaves me with 2. 1 more hour for lunch. Only 1 hour. Travelling time. Shit man. Biochem sucks. Don't know why I ever thought of doing it last time. Seemed much more interesting. It still is. So why does it suck? The teachers suck man! Especially Greg Poi. GND lar you. Cannot teach. Spend time making medicine to sell to others right? What the hell lor. We're suffering. And WHY? You're so busy making medicine with school facilities to sell off! Damn you. WHAT THE HELL....!!

SO damn pissed off. Don't mind my language today. Doesn't sound like carol? Its an angry carol. SHit. I want to do my work but I can't put my heart to it. I want to concentrate but I can't. I don't know what has happened to me. I did so badly for my APchem test. It was dumb. I COULD NOT get my stupid QUADRATIC right. Dumb? I'm an idiot. Writing extra info got my marks cut off. DAmn. What's her problem. Thats what Mrs Chan taught. I insist its correct. Wahaha. Mainly I'm pissed off with the biochem test la, and the biochem report. STUPID biochem. I want to get new lecturers. I miss Marcus Chan. Think if he had taught it everything would be clearer. JC pple!! Can PLEASE lend me your notes on WATER,CARBOHYDRATES,PROTEINS,LIPIDS, and so on???? PLEASE!! THANKS...!
I really need them. Can lend me after your promos. Or just photocopy for me. I'll return your money. I need the notes by 3rd Oct. Thanks!!

Yea. Life sucks. Biochem sucks. Poi sucks. DBMDT 1A04 rules... wahaha... Had class outing with Ms Phoon today. Free Pizza Hut meal. I had 1/2 slice of chicken supreme and 1 1/2 slices of hawaiian. 1 piece of garlic bread. 1 bowl of cream of chicken(terrible la),1 drumlet, 1 bowl of salad. Its quite a spread la. Quite full after that. Met King in Pizza Hut. He still talks alot. My classmates noticed too. Spent the rest of the time printing and verifying stuff at the library. Going for SPARC breifing tml. I mean today. Later. at 3pm. Now watching a replay of WQYL on tv. Quite light hearted. Makes me feel happier somehow. Wish I was at East Coast, where wind is blowing in my face. Sounds a little weird ya? Cause I sleepy liao!!!!!!! K la.. Shall end. Now that wasn't too bad right? Not as vulgar as I thought it would turn out. Wahaha. I still can control my tongue(in this case my fingers). Lame. k. Bye...

Posted by Carol =) at 1:21 AM

Friday, September 17, 2004

Running out of things to blog on, so I chose a topic. Euthanasia. Happens my group was discussing this so I'll just write on it here la. If its boring can just don't bother reading.

Euthanasia is being defined as the act of killing someone painlessly (especially someone suffering from an incurable illness). It is also known as mercy killing.

Seriously, in my opinion, euthanasia should be banned. Haha. Of course people would argue, why suffer if you can shorten your pain? What if you thought about this, it is not time for you to die? You may be lying really ill in bed, but who knows if a miracle will happen? How can miracles occur if everyone just chooses to end their lives once they think they wun be able to survive the pain?

Perhaps I'm a christian, and think of euthanasia as an act of murder. Is it not? Is not commiting suicide a form of murder as well? So supporting euthanasia means we are allowed to kill at ease? As long as we think someone should not be allowed to suffer anymore? If euthanasia is legalised, we might as well legalise suicide. Is euthanasia really a relieve of pain? Will it cause murder rates to go up? It can be an excuse for murder.

But let me make this clear, I'm not trying to say that christian values are against euthanasia. In fact, i believe there are christians who support euthanasia. It just seems wrong to me. It all falls in the wrong place. It spells murder to me.

My goodness. Why are there people for euthanasia! I don't care if you read this and think I'm a whole bunch of crap. Thats all right. I make my stand that euthanasia should be banned!

Haiz. Its good to get that out. Many values that I know and abide with are being criticised and thought of as being dumb. I know that this will happen somehow, but I still have to state my stand. I don't want to sit on the fence. Neither do I want to agree with them. Even for the sake of a project. I don't mind presenting something not of my stand. But I will make it clear that it is not. Haha. Am i confusing? I guess I'm rather brain dead by now. Don't know what I'm trying to say already. So thus ends my thoughts on euthanasia.

As for today? A rather weird day. Weird happenings. But Praise the Lord! I nearly lost my AnP textbook($35) and my donation card(which spells p-o-l-i-c-e-r-e-p-o-r-t). But someone returned it for me! Yay. Thank God! :)

Thats about all la. Want to sleep already.

Posted by Carol =) at 1:30 AM

Thursday, September 16, 2004

Ok. Before i start bloging, here's a few replies. I figured they won't fit into my tag board.

Eunice : Hey hey! Wow... I still am amazed that you found my blog! Where did you appear from? I miss you guys so much! Haven't seen you and YingLing since... ermm... can't remember.. See? Its too long ago. Haha... Do you have a blog? Leave your address leh! Can't wait to meet up with you guys again! I'm taking exam leave soon though. Hopefully can organise something. Meanwhile, can just tag my board. Haha... See Ya!

Joyce : WOW...! You finally noticed. Haha. You'll get used to it la. You're just blur. Not dumb. Those are two different things! Can you go get a tagboard? Hahaha. I wanna tag your board. Ok. That sounds a little wrong. Haha... Oh and thanks for your well-wishes. All the best for your promos also!

Anna : Wahaha.. I love you too... Sounds les but I don't care. Hey you must take care and not forget me ok... Haha... Hope to meet you soon also. God bless you for your promos, and in everything else kk? Continue blogging k. Its how i get updated. Haha.. Both you and Joyce la. Whenever I'm free enough to read. Haha...

Ok. Finally. Haha. I'm supposed to be doing my CD case study right now. Just came home from Party World. What was I doing there? Its Elaine's birthday! Haha... Was working til 10 when we left for party world. Ok. Make that close to 11. One trainee, one staff, two managers. Wow. I've been working one staff two managers shifts actually. Finally got an extra trainee. BUT, I guess trainees make others work harder also. I left party world at around 1230. Reached home, bathed, switched the TV on. And now I'm blogging. I've got school at 8 tomorrow. Oh well. I better go off..

Posted by Carol =) at 1:34 AM

Tuesday, September 14, 2004

Thank God for system recovery! Wow... Serious. If not for that, my laptop would be in a serious mess right now. But... I managed to salvage it! Yup, system recovery... back to when it was normal. Haha. And all my files are still around. Haha... Yay.. Do I sound like an idiot? Probably. But I'm seriously glad. As for today, time passed so slowly. The APchem lesson seemed like 8 hours instead of 2. She went through some questions, but she should have done so before the test la. Went into conjugate acid-base pairs. She took a whole 1 hour on the starting of the chapter. As if we don't understand her. Its like... basic stuff. But I'm glad its the last chapter. I think this is one module I'll pass la. Just worried about the others. Oh well. Just going to make sure my laptop stays completely healthy. Not gonna write so much.

Posted by Carol =) at 10:59 PM

Monday, September 13, 2004

Hello Joyce! For your info, to tag my board, you just have to scroll down. Yup. Maybe I'll change my blog layout later so its easier. Or perhaps not. I just feel like changing the layout anyway. Anyway, I just want to express my excitement that Joyce has a blog! Yay! Now I can read updates about her. Hahaha. Haiz. Much more than half of the people I know tell me they have sucky lives lar. Anna, you're not the only one. If you need someone, I'm still here. I miss seeing you guys almost everyday. I wish I could turn back time. Maybe things would be different. I don't know. I really have no idea. I don't even know what's happening now. Haha.

AP chem test today. How on earth did I get two negative values for my x! Its dumb. What on earth happened??! I stared at it for very long lor. I think my math is pulling it down. Such simple math and somehow I can't do it! What's wrong with me? Why is my math soooo terrible? I think my brain has stopped functioning. I feel so sad for myself... Haha...

On a brighter note, while others are having exams now, I'm slacking. Should be studying but at least my exams are not so near. Going to study later. Happens that I'm much more active at night. I seem to study better at night la. Haha. What a horrid lifestyle I have. Haha...

Posted by Carol =) at 11:51 PM

Friday, September 10, 2004

I don't want to grow up. At least not now. I wish I didn't have to grow out of secondary school. Those days were bliss. Now, its totally different. What's with tertiary education? Haha. And I got at least 6 more years of tertiary education to do. That is, if I pass. Its a little sad la. I better start to like it. Tertiary life gives you alot of freedom. So you really have to manage your own time. Aren't I a little too young for that? Haha. I'm just kidding myself la. But its not too bad. I finally feel void for most stuff. Nothing happy, sad, upset, dislike. I feel better these few days. Oh ya Joyce are you reading this? Haha.. Go tag my board la! Bet u only could remember someone's blogspot. Haha. Right? I'm sure lor! Haha. Ok la. I won't say who she/he is one la. I bet about at least a dozen of other people already can guess who. Right Anna? Haha.. Yupz. K la. Want to bathe. Worked whole day today now like smelly pig.

Posted by Carol =) at 1:27 AM

Tuesday, September 07, 2004

I guess I shouldn't actually blog everyday la. I'll probably soon run out of things to say. But anyway, I just felt like blogging. Suddenly I feel lost sia. Don't know what I'm doing. Have I said this before? I can't remember. I'm lost. Haha. I really wish I had more time. More time to rest and think about everything. I really have no idea what's happening now. TIme is flashing by, without stopping for me. Sometimes I just sit down, and feel so lost I feel like crying. But the tears won't flow. I don't know why I feel like crying, I don't know why this feeling comes. But it does. It sneaks up on me. What's the use of growing up if we have to go through all these? Maybe its so that we would be able to mature. Its a weird way though. Just because I have no idea what's happening at all. Am I still allowed to take a day at a time? I definitely can't take things at face value anymore. There are so much hidden. Nothing is really what it seems. Maybe only a rare few.

Time is flying past. Even as I type this. I don't have any control over time. I can only control what I do with time. But I seem to be really bad at that. But I feel lost I believe I stopped trying. Where is the confidence I used to have? Where is the strength? I think I lost it. Haha. Pray. Thats the only solution. Only wished I knew what I could pray for. I don't even know how to pray for myself. What has happened to me? I somehow don't wish to know. What I would really like now? A really really long break. For me to get back to my senses. When can I have that break? Not til November I guess. Meanwhile, I could just hang on and not suffer a breakdown as yet. Haha.

Oh. Its my term break now. I didn't notice. It seems like it was over yesterday. I spent the whole day in school trying to do projects. Haha. Tomorrow, thursday and friday I have to work. Saturday I have to go back to school. Lord!! Help me!! If this goes on, I don't know what will happen. I guess its enough. I don't feel like blogging anymore. I wish I didn't have so many decisions to make. Small, but carries enough importance in my life. Thats it la.

Posted by Carol =) at 11:08 PM

Monday, September 06, 2004

I finally changed how my blog look!! Yay!! Haha... I know it looks very sweet la, so unlike me. But thats ok. Haha. Pink blogs are cute. Hahaha. Its ok. I'm just getting very lame. So yup. Gonna make more changes so its better. Laterz...

Posted by Carol =) at 8:19 PM

Sunday, September 05, 2004

Ok. I spent the past hour looking for a new blogskin, and tried to change my blog settings a little. I failed!! Haha. Cant find any blogskin I like. And I realized my laptop does not have any frontpage! So yup. I failed completely. Thus, my blog still looks the same. But its alright. I guess only about 1 or 2 people read my blog. Haha. At least got 1 I hope! Haha. Its alright even if no one reads my blog la. Haha. So sorry to the 1 or 2 who does bother to read this rubbish. Hahaha.

My computer is going a little berserk already. Probably cause I use it too often. Haha. Oh well. Oh ya, and I didn't succeed in doing my work either. All I did today was to pack and file my papers. Which is good! Hahaha. I manage to throw quite alot of stuff the past few days la. My room finally looks like it has a little more space. Haha. Still abit clumped la. I sorta lessened the clump thats all. All the books are collecting dust. I wonder where all the dust comes from! Read somewhere that it consists of mainly dead skin. But, I don't step into that room much!(In fact, no one does.) So where on earth do these dust appear?!
Hmmm... Haha. Point to ponder. I managed to dig out some weird looking books la. My dad's. Those of reallllly long ago. Like on real estate. Haha. He stopped selling real estate many many many years ago. But I'm glad I got certain stuff in order! I managed to file most of my certificates into a clear folder. Haha. The SHSS A3 one which they gave when I was in sec 1. See! Its useful! Hahaahaha. Forgive me. Haha..

Ok la. I guess I'm officially distracted from writing my blog. My train of thoughts gone. So, I shall stop!

Posted by Carol =) at 2:43 PM

Saturday, September 04, 2004

Lalala.. Its the holidays! Haha.. Ok, so its the term break. I think it should be renamed though. To perhaps something like, "week to complete projects", yup. Haha. I gotta do a few projects and reports. Its a sad life. Haha. But is ok. I'll get used to it. Besides projects and reports, I also got to study for tests. Haiz. Its sad la. Haha.

The module which I would most likely fail? That has got to be Biosystems and Biomolecules. In fact, I don't know much about that topic. Haha. I guess I only know a little. Got to buck up on those stupid carbohydrate and protein structures and stuff like that. Haiz.

Anyway, I got to work this week. And I got to do my projects. Besides that, I guess I got nothing else to do!! Haha. At least for now la. So bored now! Got alot of things to do but I don't want to! Ok forget it. Haha. Don't bother to read this entry la. Its dumb and boring.. Haha. Jaa ne..