Tuesday, March 30, 2004

Another day spent at home. But not too bad. It was rest. Haha. Sent 57 smses since previous count. Though I slept at 3 last night, I woke up early today. Why? Hmmm. I've been having weird dreams. Is it because I've been doing nothing? Why? I wonder.. Today's the orientation finale for SA. I wonder how it was. Orientation 2 is so much shorter and less fun than orientation 1. Haha. They're playing with their CGs instead during orientation 2. Hmmm. K lar. nothing to say le. Shall stop here.

Posted by Carol =) at 8:57 PM

First day of work. Haha. Whoa. My first time working! Haha. Its not too bad. Except I don't think I fared very well. Want to know more? Ask me lar! Haha. msn=> claa@pacific.net.sg Yep. Thats it! Haha. I don't exactly know what to say. Just glad I'm working! :) So.. Bye!

Posted by Carol =) at 12:41 AM

Sunday, March 28, 2004

Spent my whole day out today. Happy. Its good to be out of the house. I'm really not the stay at home kind of person. Work is going to start tomorrow, and I simply can't wait! I know its not going to be easy, but at least I can be out of the house. And, I can use a challenge! Haha. Besides, extra cash will do me just fine. Can't wait. Oh well. Sent 96 smses since the last time. Oh my. Haha. Somebody stop me! But i rather have people messaging me than a quiet phone. Its rather unbearable. Ok... Nothing else to say, can't say much about today, so I shall go sleep!(why? when I'm not working til 3.30pm..) So, I shall... stop here. And see what I shall do. Haha. K. Bye....

Posted by Carol =) at 11:07 PM

Saturday, March 27, 2004

Finally got to leave the house today! I'm sooooo happy. Haha. Anyway, I got the job at brekz marina square. Going for some orientation thing on monday. (orientation???) Haha. I miss SA. Feel like going back. Oh well, so here's another SA cheer!

(Let me hear you SA cheer
What's that you say i say) x2
(Oooh ah ah ah) x3
Ooh SA!

Stand up * Be proud *
Say your name * Out loud *
We are from * SA *
Mighty mighty SA ole ole
Chichiwawa chichiwawa SA SA
Chichiwawa chichiwawa SA SA

Oh, and for these cheers you gotta shake your butt. Haha. When is the basketball finals?!! I want to CHEER!!! Okie. Thats all for now! :P

Posted by Carol =) at 6:40 PM

Apparently, my computer has gone crazy. My internet has gone crazy. And so have I. Ok. This is not very good. Help?!

Posted by Carol =) at 12:46 AM

Friday, March 26, 2004

Either friendster is extremely laggy, or my computer is super slow. One, friendster sends me a email telling me that I have a new testimonial. But when I arrive to the page. No, there's nothing! Until the next day. Two, I edit my profile and it takes sooo long to really be edited. And I'm being bored to death!!!! I'm dying! Hey people, if you, i mean YOU, yes YOU are free, come and ask me out ok? Before Carol dies. Or becomes crazier. Hmm.. Alternatively, you guys can pray that I get a job, and that I won't have another nightmare of the same kind. Then I'll stop bugging people. I'M DYING.... Note: sent 34 smses since last count. Its getting rather bad...

Posted by Carol =) at 11:51 PM

Nightmare! I just had a nightmare! My goodness. Its not worth mentioning. It better not come true! And to think I always have deja vus. Oh no! Stupid nightmare. Spoil my day! Oh well.....

Posted by Carol =) at 1:16 PM

Thursday, March 25, 2004

Haha. Just a note. I've sent 106 sms since the last count. Hmm. Its getting quite alot isn't it? For just a few days? Haha. Oh well.

Posted by Carol =) at 9:21 PM

Ichiban sushi just called me. After I've had an interview with brekz. Now what am I supposed to do? I said I would wait for brekz, but that is not certain. Now what? Oh no. I don't know if I made a good decision. Afterall, I think I would get the job in brekz. But, what if I don't? Then what would I do? I won't go back to Ichiban and beg them to let me work there!! Haha. Anyway, I still dunno! HELP!!!!

Posted by Carol =) at 11:33 AM

Tuesday, March 23, 2004

I realized. I'm still suffering from withdrawal symptoms of orientation. Just heard news that SA has been rather dead. WHAT HAPPENED??? I mean, the very first day I was there, I had loads of fun. Thats weird. Haha. They're starting orientation next week. There there, they just want to split you guys into classes first! Haha. Wait la, wait til its orientation. Then you'll enjoy. My goodness. I miss the good old OG 22 first intake!! Saintestralis was soooo fun! "Once a saint, always a saint." Even though I won't stay for 2 years, I'll miss the 3 months dearly. Haha. Well, just to relieve the good old times, here's priscilla's bimbo cheer!

Like totally, for sure, I even got a manicure,
The sun, I swear, is bleaching on my hair.
Red, blue, yellow, green, what's the colour of my team?
I don't know, I don't care, how should i do my hair?
Go go fight fight, Gee I hope i look alright.
Go go fight fight! like go 22!!

We got the guys to do that. haha. Cool ya? I miss Norentia. I miss screaming til my throat goes hoarse. I even miss the Lindy Hop! I miss SA!!!!!

SA SA * the best the best*
SA the best*
Chi ga la ka pi ya pi ya
Chi ga la ka pi ya pi ya
SUA!

This cheer must learn action man.. Haha. And the silent version. Now that I'm so bored, I wish I was helping out with orientation!!

Posted by Carol =) at 6:48 PM

I'm bored bored bored. I've got nothing to do. I'm just sitting here rotting at home. HELP ME... There's nothing on tv, nothing nice to read, no new songs to play, no new friends today. I haven't even stepped out of my house for a single second!! Its times like this which i wished I was in school. At least I have something to do, though its not that interesting. Oh well... Got something else here...

I'VE BLOWN IT!

Have you ever experienced, loneliness, uncontrollable anger, depression, feel like life is pointless or overwhelmed by failure or guilt from past mistakes. If we are honest we all have. I think there are days when we all want a new start. Anger, depression and all the rest are not the problem, they are just a symptom of the problem. If we don't deal with the problem, it will destroy us.

The problem is that through many immoral and amoral acts, thoughts and attitudes we have created a split between us and God. This split is called sin.

Our Sin keeps us from knowing God personally and experiencing His love. Sin separates us from God and brings about emptiness in our hearts that only God can fill. But we are continually trying to fill it through our own efforts such as money, career, relationships, popularity, looks, achievements, works, freedom, philosophy or religion, and we always fail.

What is sin? God has created us with freedom of choice. Although we were meant to enjoy a personal, loving relationship with Him, we have chosen to go our own independent way, thus breaking our relationship with God. This continual tendency of choosing to ignore or reject God is what the bible calls sin.

Who has sinned? "For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God." ROMANS 3:23

What happens when we sin? "But the trouble is that your sins have cut you off from God." Isaiah 59:2

The death spoken of here is spiritual separation from God. "For the wages of sin is death." ROMANS 6:23

What is the answer to this problem?

Because God loves us, He cannot stand the split that separates us from Him. However, God is perfect and He cannot allow our sin to go unpunished. If He did He would cease being perfect and more importantly cease being God. The penalty of sin must be paid for. Good living or religion can't pay the bill.

Since we can not pay the debt, God did. He put on flesh and blood and came to earth as a human...Jesus. Jesus is God's only solution for sin. He came to take the punishment that you and I deserve. He was killed for you and me. He rose again from the dead to once and for all defeat sin. Through HIM alone we can know God personally and experience God's love.

Why Jesus? Jesus is the only way to God. "I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Me." JOHN 14:6

Why did Jesus have to die in our place? "Christ also suffered once for all time. He never sinned, but he died for sinners that He might bring us safely home to God." 1 PETER 3:18

Jesus has bridged the gulf that separates us from Him, by dealing with the problem of sin. Therefore we can have a personal relationship with God and receive His forgiveness. The most important decision you will ever make is, what will you do with Jesus.

So what do we do?

God has done his part when his son Jesus died for you. Now it's your move. WE MUST EACH RESPOND to JESUS by placing our trust only in HIM. Then we can know God personally and experience His love.

AGREEING with God that we are sinful and deciding to turn from our sin is the first step. Turning to God means you are also turning away from something. As you turn to Jesus you are "turning away" from your sin. This is known as to "repent." You are saying, "I cannot give myself to Him while hanging onto my sin that he died for." This means you are turning your back on things such as lying, sexual immorality, anger and all the rest of it, to start doing things God's way.

The choice we must make is to:

ADMIT to your need for Jesus

REPENT and be willing to turn away from your sin.

BELIEVE that Jesus died for you

RECEIVE Jesus by choosing a relationship with Him, instead of your current life of sin and separation from God. This relationship is a gift from God and begins when we put our trust in Jesus. "For it is by grace that you have been saved, through faith - and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God - not by works, so that no one can boast." EPHESIANS 2:8,9

The relationship is personal. "Yet to all who receive Him, to those who believed in His name, He gave the right to become children of God." JOHN 1:12

You can place your trust in Jesus by expressing your faith through prayer. (Prayer is simply talking to God.) God knows your heart and is not so concerned with your words as He is with the attitude of your heart. You can say something like this:

"Jesus, I realise that I have been running my own life and have sinned against You. I believe that Jesus died for my sins. I want to be the kind of person You want me to be. I receive You as my Saviour and Lord. Thank You for giving me eternal life."

Could you say this to God and mean it?

If so, just talk to God and say something like we suggested. If you do, you will become a child of God as He promised.

Yup. Thats for you. :)

Posted by Carol =) at 2:47 PM

Monday, March 22, 2004

Back from spending a few hours outside after an interview with Ichiban Sushi. I wonder if I will get the call though. I'm not so confident. Got no working experience. First day of my long holiday and I'm so bored? I need my job soon!! The interview was at 3, then i spent my next few hours walking around with vincent and ah tan. Wanted to watch a movie but there were no good shows, and not enough money. Haha. Ate KFC for dinner, re-filled my mountain dew several times. Sometimes I think I drink too much. hmm. Sent a total of 28 smses since morning. Heh. K la.. I'll write again next time. Since I've got a WHOLE holiday, I guess I'll update...

Posted by Carol =) at 9:58 PM

Haiz.. Everyone's in school today. I'm not. Haha. Not exactly everyone, but still, most of them. Now i know how it feels to be at home for a holiday while the rest are studying. Its not exactly very fun. But at least i get enough sleep! I'll be out looking for a job later. ALONE. Simply because everyone else is in school! Haha. Well, to all those in school... enjoy ok? I enjoyed my three months!! But study hard at the same time. Yup. I'll end here. I'm absolutely bored to tears. SAVE ME!!

Posted by Carol =) at 1:06 PM

Sunday, March 21, 2004

Sunday. Haha.. I haven't slept in on a sunday for a very long period of time, until last week i think. The feeling of getting enough sleep is just so great. So far I'm trying to maintain my english here, hopefully I'll get myself never to use singlish as the main language here. Hmm.. More about today. I got up around 11, had my lunch, then went to suntec. Was at New Creation today, and the previous week. I have no comments on the service. Haha. After that I went ghim moh(!!!?!) and ate at the Mac there. Why did I go there I do NOT understand. I spent around 3 hours in there eating with Cheryl, then taking the train ALL the way back from buona vista mrt. Its so far!! Just thinking that I'll be going to dover everyday in 3 months time scares me. Going to queenstown during my 3 months in SAJC were bad enough. Well, tomorrow JC starts, and I'll be doing NOTHING at home. Haha. I guess I'll look for a job. The backsiderz are going to split... Cheryl and Joel in RJC. Felicia, Yanping, Marcus, Carmen, You Rong(and Saleha, obviously) in SAJC. Suying in Hwa Chong. Apinun in VJC. Yours truly in SP! Haha. 11 of us, 5 different schools. Oh well..... Thats it I guess. I ran out of things to say. Haha. So tired. I need rest! :)

Posted by Carol =) at 8:39 PM

Saturday, March 20, 2004

Try figuring this out..
0 = 1 ???
X = 1
Xsquared = X
Xsquared - 1 = X-1
(X+1)(X-1) = X-1
X+1 = 1
X = 0

?? confusing? Seems logical? Go figure....

Posted by Carol =) at 9:23 PM

There.. The posting results are out today. I got posted to my first choice. Singapore Polytechnic, Biotechnology and Medical Technology (S80). I expected it. Haha.. Anyway, I dun feel much joy or any particular excitement.. Guess I knew I'll end up there. Oops.. got to go.. going out with Anna today. I haven't been out with her for ages! That's it, I might update later....

Posted by Carol =) at 11:29 AM

Funny how life grabs you and throws you around a little, before you decide that you can take control of your life. Well, I spent my past few days at a youth conference. There I learnt a lot, and realized quite a few things. Hey, life isn't that easy. Just something to share with all of you...

You've no doubt heard the phrase "looking for love in all the wrong places". As much as we sometimes don't like to admit it, each of us craves acceptance and an unconditional love; something that's pretty hard to find in this imperfect world. Friends fail us, family don't always want to talk to us, and sometimes those we love the most walk out of our lives...the world can be a pretty tough place.

There is someone who really does care for you! He loves you as part of his family. He is the only one that can truly fill the longing we have for a true relationship. He will love us faults and all and take away the loneliness that we often feel. Who is he? Well he's the Creator of the universe. God himself who created every galaxy and star. He longs to have a personal relationship with you.

How Do We Know This?
God has given us the most important book ever written. It is the Bible, his owner's manual for our lives. He tell us:

God Created You. "You created every part of me and put me together in my mother's womb." PSALM 139:13 -14 (Chapter 139 verses 13-14)

God Loves You! "For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have everlasting life." JOHN 3:16

God Has A Plan for You! "I have come that they may have life and have it to the full." JOHN 10:10

The most amazing thing about God is that He wants to play a part in our lives - your life; that the Creator of the universe actually cares about how you're doing. As New Zealand band, The Lads, sings "My best friend is the Creator of the Universe!" This Creator wants to help you through the tough times, see you enjoy the good times, and have you experience His love and acceptance even if you "stuff up". It's incredible to realise that through a personal relationship with Jesus we have access to the One who IS love, and can share with Him EVERYTHING that's going on in our lives. Psalm 62:8 reads "Trust in, lean on, rely on, and have confidence in Him at all times, you people; pour out your hearts before Him. God is a refuge for us".

Why is it that most people do not have this kind of relationship with God?

As you can see. We all need God! Haha... Spread the word around!
Oh and just for the sake of a biblio, the above paragraph is taken from... http://www.therealityzone.com

Posted by Carol =) at 12:56 AM

Friday, March 19, 2004

Haha.. Yupz. this is it! i've decided to create my own blog... Abit slow i know.. but still.. after spending my first half hour figuring how to do this exactly.. i still doubt that i've got the essence of it yet. Somehow i think its weird having pple read wad u have to say. well... Life is weird!! haha.. Thats it for now.. as i figure out somemore...(no one is here to help!!!!) Kz.. Let me try to make things work out for me.......